So in case you were wondering I'm having another age crisis. Or the same age crisis. At this point I don't even know.
I started working at a bank, the most important in my country, and everyone tells you that it's a job for life, that I'm going to be really happy there and my life would basically consist of it BUT I'm not sure I want that. Sure I was the one that applied for the job, and it's an amazing job, don't get me wrong. Everyone is so nice and I'm learning a lot, and saving money for the trips I wanna make, but I know for a fact I'm not made for it.
I want to be an actress ok? It's so hard to say it. I don't know if it's because of the way people look at you when you tell them, or because I know it's most likely not going to happen. Ever. But I can't help to dream about it, and it's killing me. In my country you can't live only working as an actor, because the market is not big enough and it's really difficult to be taken seriously. So basically my dream consist on going to the States or London and study acting, but for that I need a support, a job, a career and I'm not sure about any of that.
What I don't want is to wake up one day and realise I'm 40 and I'm still in my country, still working at the bank, and really unhappy. I know, I'm only 20, but this is the age to give acting a go, not 30, not 40. 20's are the best age for that and there is where the key of my crisis is, the feeling that I'm never going to be able to accomplish my dreams. I don't believe in giving up, but sometimes it's so difficult...
GOD I HATE BEING AN ADULT.
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